Things are getting better, but they are also getting uncomfortable. My involvement with different groups, communities, and even friendships has felt different lately. For the first time, I feel like I truly understand what “right”…

It’s been a couple of days since the last log. I got a bit distracted, and mentally, I feel like I’ve slipped back into the mood I was in when I first started this series.…

Today marks Day 10 of this journey—ten days of recording these logs and forced self-reflection. When I started these videos, it was simply because I wanted to create something, but I’ve quickly realized that I’ve…

I’ve been thinking about why Jesus used such intense language when He said to cut off your hand or gouge out your eye if it causes you to sin. I’m starting to understand it now.…

It’s weird the way life goes. I woke up today and realized my internal “light” has finally changed. I’m only seven logs in, but I’m already incredibly grateful for these reference points. Six days ago,…

Perfection is a strange word to me. When I think of “perfect,” the only thing that comes to mind is Jesus. Nothing else on this planet qualifies—and honestly, that’s where a lot of the beauty…

I’m already starting to see a benefit from these videos. It’s strange, but being forced to speak my internal state out loud has made me very aware that most of my issues stem from within—how…

Today’s log is a little different. My camera is dead, and I have my son with me, so I’m recording this on my phone in the bathroom. It’s raw, it’s real, and it’s exactly where…

Lately, two things have been rolling around in my head since the moment I woke up. The first is a blunt realization that has brought me an odd amount of comfort: “Don’t worry, God knows…

I love data. All kinds of it. And in this season of building things I actually want to use, I ended up making my own mood tracker. It’s simple by design. No fluff. No noise.…

Yesterday was the first time in weeks I even looked at scripture. That’s not normal for me, but it’s the reality of where I’ve been. In this journey of spiritual burnout recovery, I’ve realized that my…

brendonbaugh.com is a work in progress. On purpose. This site isn’t here to impress anyone or package things neatly. It’s here to give me a place to think clearly, write honestly, and build without pretending…

Last night, out of pure boredom, I was messing around with Streamer.bot and had a small realization. Someone built an incredibly useful tool—and yet I was still running into the same friction I always do…

I’m actually terrified of who I’m going to become at the end of it all. It’s a strange realization to hit: that the fear of success can be just as paralyzing as the fear of failure. When…