Over the past few weeks I tore down the visual system of brendonbaugh.com and rebuilt it from the ground up. Same layout. Same structure. Completely new identity. This update locks the site into a single,…

When I stepped in to consult on the XayMichael brand, the foundation was already there: strong personality, high-energy reactions, and a clear lane in gaming and internet culture. The issue wasn’t talent or content volume.…

It’s been a few days since my last log. I’ve been stuck in my own head, and a lot has changed in my perspective recently. I have to stop these videos by saying “I’ve been…

I keep a running library inside YouTube Studio. Not for gimmicks. For clarity. Every time I sit down to plan a video, I don’t want another generic “10 video ideas” list. I want prompts that…

Things are getting better, but they are also getting uncomfortable. My involvement with different groups, communities, and even friendships has felt different lately. For the first time, I feel like I truly understand what “right”…

It’s been a couple of days since the last log. I got a bit distracted, and mentally, I feel like I’ve slipped back into the mood I was in when I first started this series.…

Today marks Day 10 of this journey—ten days of recording these logs and forced self-reflection. When I started these videos, it was simply because I wanted to create something, but I’ve quickly realized that I’ve…

I’ve been thinking about why Jesus used such intense language when He said to cut off your hand or gouge out your eye if it causes you to sin. I’m starting to understand it now.…

Today, I am feeling incredibly self-conscious. This is actually the fifth time I’ve tried to record this video. I keep tripping over my words and going off on tangents, and it’s made me question who…

It’s weird the way life goes. I woke up today and realized my internal “light” has finally changed. I’m only seven logs in, but I’m already incredibly grateful for these reference points. Six days ago,…

Perfection is a strange word to me. When I think of “perfect,” the only thing that comes to mind is Jesus. Nothing else on this planet qualifies—and honestly, that’s where a lot of the beauty…

I’m already starting to see a benefit from these videos. It’s strange, but being forced to speak my internal state out loud has made me very aware that most of my issues stem from within—how…

Today’s log is a little different. My camera is dead, and I have my son with me, so I’m recording this on my phone in the bathroom. It’s raw, it’s real, and it’s exactly where…

This page is a simple marker. It’s a running list of things I want to build over the course of the year. Some are small. Some will take time. All of them scratch a real…

Lately, two things have been rolling around in my head since the moment I woke up. The first is a blunt realization that has brought me an odd amount of comfort: “Don’t worry, God knows…

I love data. All kinds of it. And in this season of building things I actually want to use, I ended up making my own mood tracker. It’s simple by design. No fluff. No noise.…

Yesterday was the first time in weeks I even looked at scripture. That’s not normal for me, but it’s the reality of where I’ve been. In this journey of spiritual burnout recovery, I’ve realized that my…